Happy Eyes

“Happy the eyes that can close.” --from Cry the Beloved Country

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Peep-Peep-Peeping Along


We took the boys up to the Colorado Train Museum in Golden yesterday for a day with Thomas the Tank Engine. Bode has been into trains since conception and has played with Thomas trains since about 18 months. It is quite possibly the best investment when it comes to toys that we've made in our house. He still plays with them at 4 1/2 and Keegen has joined him in the fun, too.

I've seen these "Day Out With Thomas" activities and kept it in mind for the past couple years. I decided this year was the year. Both boys were old enough to enjoy it.


Golden is home to Coors Brewing Co...

It was a lot of fun. A tent with temporary Thomas tattoos. A tent with a bunch of train tables to play on. Pictures with Thomas and Sir Topham Hatt (you had to wait in line for pics. We chose not to). We were allowed to climb into a bunch of different trains and cars. There was a firetruck to check out (and a plastic firehat for the boys. I don't think Bode's taken his off yet!). And the best part was actually riding on Thomas. We loaded onto (cattle) cars and were taken around three loops of the train museum yard. The boys loved it. They also loved the charter bus ride to and from the parking lot. Hey, we're easy. It was a good time.

On the train-ride. Waving to their fans. Excuse Keegen's mouthful o' pretzel...

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Things That Turn Me On; Part XII

When we moved here we bought within a couple blocks of what was going to be a great park. Play structure, basketball court, picnic pavilion, maybe a skate park area. I was so excited for it to be built because that's one of the few things i need in life with small children--a great park within walking distance. We were spoiled in Maryland in that we backed to open space and a walking trail that took us on a stellar walk around the lake and to a great playground.

Fast forward to the actual park being built. It was a battle. Supposedly the community "ran out of money" for this project. Thankfully one woman who bought a house directly across from the would-be park (for that specific reason) was TICKED and wasn't going to just let it go. She threatened to sue, went around with a petition. And in the end a play structure was put in. A superbly LAME play structure. Pathetic and sad and nearly embarassing. My boys were bored with it even when they were little. We're talking Little Tikes slide-sized play structure. To its credit, it did have swings. It's a huge area with a sad, dinky playground that has suffered much vandalism (and not to justify, but the preteens and teenagers really do need something for them. Bball court? Skate park?). So big that soccer games are played there. I've been really bugged that it is so not worth going there when it's just around the corner. And even more bugged when the community built a brand-new decent playground on the other side of the neighborhood (where just about NOBODY lives).

We just drove home and passed by the park and what did we see???? A BRAND NEW play structure wrapped in DO NOT TOUCH ME YET yellow tape waiting to be installed. I actually let out an audible gasp when i saw it. Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

It really is the little things...

Saturday, September 20, 2008

You May Bow Down to Me Now...

...the DOMESTIC GODDESS that i am!!

Now, not only do i grind the grains and bake the bread with all of this gluten-free baking that's been going on for the past 4 months. i now CAN the beans and pears, too! What is going on?!

I know that's exactly what Doug is wondering when he looks at me in a "Who the hell are you and what have you done with my wife?" sort of way. A comment he made when he walked in on me decked out in my apron and my grain grinder?--"Wow. I never thought i'd see the day..." My response being, "This is LOVE, baby." (Meaning i'm doing this out of pure love for my child in need of non-wheatables).

I went to the farmers' market the other day and got it into my head that i wanted to make dilly beans. Basically, pickled string beans. I remember my mom made them once growing up. At the time, i thought they'd be totally gross, but they were yummy. And then lo and behold my friend calls me up the next day and asks if i want to join her in a canning class she's going to. Why yes i do!

We went to the class and then high-tailed it to the Ace Hardware they kept saying had all the supplies we'd need. Then we headed to the farmers' market and picked up boxes of fruit and some more beans. Then, of course, we had to do lunch. And a fun errand. By the time i dropped Kristen off and got home she was already calling me to say her peaches were in their water bath (bragger). So i got to work on my beans. Totally quick and easy. It took FOREVER for the water to come to a boil, but that's my only complaint. We'll see if they turned out tasty or not.


Then onto the pears. MUCH MORE WORK. Unlike the beans, they had to be peeled and cooked before canning. (Yes, i read that you can leave the peels on and make them raw, but i also read that they're oh so much better peeled and precooked and if i'm going to go to the trouble...) And i had to make a light syrup. And i'm a total hypocrite because i made a sugar syrup and i'm always really annoyed when i can't find canned fruit in JUICE in the stores. Here i am making my own and tossing sugar in the mix. But that's what i remember about my mom's canned pears. Oh, how yummy the syrup was. And i didn't have white grape juice on hand. And i made it extra-extra-light, so hopefully that counts for something. And am i using enough "ands" for ya?

I only got four quarts done before i burned out (and i swear i have the same amount of pears left that i started with!). I did some fresh salsa and finished the pears last night for a grand total of ten quarts (much thanks to Doug who peeled and cored the pears whilst he watched the season premiere of Heroes). So bring on the blizzards! We are set. (TOTALLY JOKING. We still need to get chips for the salsa. And please no snow until at least AFTER Halloween. Thankyouverymuch).
Here's hoping for some delicious home-canned fruit on my storage shelves!

And Kristen? Next time, let's split a box of pears!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Wear 'Em Out Wednesdays

Cruisin' on his scooter
Wednesdays have become our busiest day of the week with our new school year and new routine. Bode has school, Keegen has a tumbling class at the Y and they both have soccer in the evening. They are good and tired by the end of the day (well before the end of the day!). Bode is doing great in school--dealing well with being dropped off and seems to jump right in and participate. Keegen and i get our time together at the tumbling class. And soccer is just a hoot. Truly. And it's late enough that sometimes Doug can drop by (since it's close to his office) and watch, too, which is always a treat.

He's so fast you can barely see him!
Today was a fun school day for Bode since they got to go on a field trip. To Safeway of all places! The school is in a strip mall right next to Safeway so they all walked on over using the tried-and-true buddy system. They got a tour of all the departments, being allowed into the inner workings of the place. Produce and floral, meats and deli, bakery and all the coolers, freezers, compactors and truck-loading areas. They got goodies along the way from every department and were given a special treat from Starbucks
The next Starbucks Generation
and an apple and Odwalla smoothie on the way out (i was surprised by that one!). Keegen was allowed to tag along and fit right in--well--pushed himself right in! He's so ready to be a big boy and go to school it just makes me laugh. After the field trip we headed back to class where they had circle/story time (and Keegen found a spot for himself right next to the teacher). I was happy to see Bode interact so well with his classmates and teachers, volunteering answers and seemed to be so comfortable.
Dribbling skills

They both love soccer. Bode's class is first and Keegen just about dies from lack of patience waiting and watching for his class (and asking repeatedly if it's time for his class). They have a great coach and it's lots of fun games to build soccer and social skills. This was the first class where i've seen Bode just jump right in and have a blast. None of this "I'm scared!" crap! He was the first to yell out answers and was full of confidence ("I'm really good at this" when asked to be goalie). I was happy to see it, although now that he's coming out of his shell and actually speaking in a group setting we might have to talk to him about boasting and yelling and talking over his coach; etc. But i'll take it! He was asking before we even left at the end of the classes when he could come back. Money and time well spent!


"Good job, Soccer Buddies!" cheer

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Reason #5483 Why I Love My Husband


I took Doug to see Mamma Mia tonight. He likes musicals and doesn't mind a chick-flick every now and again. In one of the early scenes in the movie, the daughter was singing and i think she's darling, so i said to Doug, "Isn't she darling?" And he agreed. He's already totally into the movie and says, "We're going to have to own this one." It was so fun seeing this with him. We've been listening to the soundtrack ad nauseum so it was fun to sing along with the show and with him. And now he wants to learn to play "Our Last Summer" on the guitar. What a guy.
The end.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Sad but True

I make gluten-free graham crackers. They are awesome, in case you were wondering. So i went out and bought marshmallows and Hershey bars to make s'mores with the fam. Before i could put them all together, the boys ate all the grahams. But don't you feel sorry for me. I ate the entire bag of marshmallows all by myself. And realized how good they were with a bite of chocolate added to the mix. Yep. One bite of marshmallow+One bite of chocolate=Gooooood. Repeat. One bite of marshmallow+One bite of chocolate...

Big News

Kristen called to tell me she had big news. Which is....IKEA is coming to Colorado! There's hope for this place afterall! I mean, really, how is there one in Draper, Utah and not Denver? While it will still be a couple years, there is joy in my heart and an extra little jaunt in my step. ;)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

What it Means When i Say We're "Working on Our OT Programs"

This is not a brief post. I felt like i need to record what we do day to day for Bode's OT programs. It is a huge part of our lives right now and i want to have it written down somewhere.

Most of you know the history of Bode and occupational therapy. In a very small nutshell, he has Sensory Processing Disorder, a very official title for something that means he's wired to be uber-sensitive to noise, activity and textures. Yes, lots of kids don't like getting their hands messy, but the intensity of his reaction to something like getting peanut butter on his hands, or spilling some water on himself was totally inappropriate and could send him into a total meltdown. He was so easily frustrated that all i heard most days was an angry, "I CAN'T DO IT!" for many simple tasks and requests. Transitions were always met with resistance ("what do you mean we have to go? I just got settled!"). Going to group activities was a huge challenge as all of the stimulation was too much for him to handle. His brain couldn't deal with kids running around, music playing, kids laughing and yelling and more all at the same time. He would stand and watch but was never able to join in. I referred to him as "reserved" and "slow to warm" because i liked those words better than "shy" and "anxious."

The older he got the more it was affecting him. He struggled to join in play, school life was hard, participation non-existent. I felt like this would be a problem that would compound over time. As the other kids continued to make progress in school and socially, Bode would have been left behind. This, stated better than i can put it, from the SPD Foundation, is what i was fearing: Children with Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD) often have problems with motor skills and other abilities needed for school success and childhood accomplishments. As a result, they often become socially isolated and suffer from low self-esteem and other social/emotional issues

These difficulties put children with SPD at high risk for many emotional, social, and educational problems, including the inability to make friends or be a part of a group, poor self-concept, academic failure, and being labeled clumsy, uncooperative, belligerent, disruptive, or "out of control." Anxiety, depression, aggression, or other behavior problems can follow. Parents may be blamed for their children's behavior by people who are unaware of the child's "hidden handicap."


So this ended up being a very big nutshell! Summing up, he started OT at a child development center when he was 2 1/2. We saw improvements and were happy to see our happy child emerge. We'd caught glimpses before ! But the work he did one day a week didn't ever stick. We were told on two occasions that he didn't need OT anymore, and would watch him slip back to his old, frustrated ways in a matter of a month or two. Vicious cycle. Then came his evaluation with Donna Bateman, a neurodevelopmental specialist. And since then, we've been doing our own sort of home OT based on her evaluation and prescribed programs. These, i believe, will most definitely "stick." We work to change the wiring in his brain with these programs and i know at some point in time, as Donna put it, I will call her to tell her "he is well."

What do we do when we work on our OT programs? Instead of the one day a week, 30 minute sessions of OT we used to have, we focus on doing them five days a week. i've chosen to give him Monday and Wednesday off, since those are both school days and Wednesday is busier with school and soccer. I don't give him Saturday or Sunday off since Doug can work on the creeping/crawling program with him and i get a break. The creeping/crawling program is the hardest one to complete and the one i give the majority of the credit for his improvements and "rewiring."
  1. Creeping and crawling--We set up a track on our upstairs level made of those foam pieces that fit together like a puzzle. It goes down the hall, hangs a right to go through Bode's room, straight through the jack-and-jill bathroom and into and through Keegen's room, then back down the hall to the starting point. That's one loop and it equals about 65 feet. I tried to get Bode to wear wrestlers' knee pads too but he wouldn't. There's a lot of wear and tear so we have pants that he wears specifically for c/c. And when the knees wear out? We flip them around backwards and he wears that side out! He started with low crawl (like an Army guy) 5 sessions a day/4 meters (13 ft) each session for a total of 20 meters (66 ft), so that was about one loop. Creeping (crawling on hands and knees) started with 10 sessions a day/10 meters (32 ft) each session which was about 5 loops. He is now to the max with 5 loops of low crawl (100 meters/328 ft) and 50 loops of creeping for a total of ONE KILOMETER. That's A LOT. We know we're asking a lot of him, but we've seen the positive results and know it's worth it. We see that when we're consistent about doing his programs, they're easier to get done because he's functioning better. It's a battle when we've been off-track. The goal of creeping and crawling? To literally grow portions of the brain (the pons and the midbrain) which improves function, develops convergence of vision and establishes dominance. This is literally rewiring him. The crossover patterns of the creeping and crawling (picture how your hands and legs coordinate to do this) rewires the brain. Sound crazy? Ya, maybe. But even in the traditional OT program, we learned a lot about crossover patterns and brain rewiring. So i think that's partly why this program just made sense to me when she told me about it. It's been interesting to watch him and see the improvements in his literal crossover pattern. He was pretty disorganized and inefficient when he started. Now he's a sleek machine!. And it carries over to how he runs. He was really inefficient with his running--only his right arm would swing and he'd hold his left arm close to his body. Now he crosses over those arms in true running pattern. It's not like we've been working on his running. It's just carried over. One small way he shows me his brain is changing. When we first started, Doug would get down on hands and knees and do the loops with him because it was such a fight to get it done. We'd make it a game. We'd do games in-between cycles of loops to break it up and as a reward. Doug's knees literally bled one time so he now has his own kneepads. That's how intense this program can be. Bode is often sweating when he completes it all. Now Doug doesn't have to crawl with him. We walk behind him and read to him. Books about dinosaurs. Magic Treehouse books. We're finishing up James and the Giant Peach. I'm glad he enjoys books so much and makes it possible to make this program more tolerable for all of us.

  2. Auditory Level 2--I literally blow an airhorn in his direction when he isn't expecting it. We used to do it three times a day. We now do it once a day. The goal is to create the ability to hear and respond fearfully to a loud, sudden, threatening sound. I was surprised he needed this program. I expected him to jump out of his skin when Donna blew the airhorn during his eval. But he just mildly started and looked at me with a grumpy face. When i bought the airhorn, the girl at the checkout asked me if it was for a graduation. I debated telling her why i bought it or just saying yes. I told her it was for an OT program. That we blow it to stimulate the startle reflex in kids. She paused and said, "Huh. That's kind of mean." It does seem so but it's to stimulate what could be a life-saving reflex in some kids who don't respond like they should. If a car is hurtling down the road toward my kid, blowing his horn, i want my kid to jump out of the way. Not just look at it with mild, annoyed curiosity. Anyway. I warn Keegen that i'm going to blow it because he cries and carries on and says, "You're MEAN, Mom!" if i don't...

  3. Sensation Level 3--This is the program that is a lot like the body brushing we did with traditional OT. I have two boxes of textures, one smooth and the other rough. You use two contrasting textures and rub all over his body. Rough then smooth. Ten sessions, so i just sit with him while he watches a video and do all twenty textures. The goal is to create the ability to feel and appreciate pleasurable and unpleasurable sensations in the appropriate length of time consistently throughout the entire body. With traditional OT brushing, i was told to avoid sensitive areas, like inner thighs and bottom. I mentioned this to Donna, thinking this is what i should do with this program, and she basically thought that was silly. I swear, brush his bum for a week and he was pooping on the potty. If only i'd known that's what it would take! ;) His issues with getting hands messy etc. are non-issues now. One great memory i want recorded was when, just a couple weeks after we started this program, his cousin ran past him and bumped him, which caused him to spill most of his water all over the front of his shirt. I watched him and held my breath waiting to see what his reaction would be. Would he flip out? He didn't. He looked at his glass, put it on the table, brushed his hands across his shirt, and went running after her. BEAUTIFUL. I was thrilled.

  4. Olfactory--This is kind of a weird one to me. During his eval, Donna had B smell a bunch of smells. Some good, some stinky. He said they were all stinky. We now present him with three different smells three session a day. We change the smells every three days. One smell is pleasant, one unpleasant and one that he can taste. So an example of what we've done: watermelon, dogfood and peppermint oil. Peanut butter, sour milk and cloves. Etc. The goal of this one is for him to become appropriately aware of smells and to stimulate the amygdala, thereby improving emotional growth. Basically, the amygdala is in the midbrain and is "lower function". You improve it and you improve the limbic system above it (higher function). The limbic system houses our emotional stuff. How's that for technical. Anyway. I have seen that when i stopped doing this program but was still doing the others, his meltdowns returned. I was fascinated by that and QUICKLY resumed doing it!

  5. Auditory Level 3--We make 3 different sounds for one minute, 10 sessions a day. He is blindfolded and has to point to where he hears the sound. When Donna did this, he didn't locate the sounds very well. The goal is to create the ability to consistently and instantly hear, recognize and locate sounds in the environment. To be able to FILTER sounds, including not being over-sensitive or easily distracted by sound. This hopefully will help him when we go to those crazy birthday parties or Primary activities. Hopefully instead of being overwhelmed by the activity and noise, he'll be able to filter and join in and have fun too. We've really just started this one so i can't testify to it's success just yet.

  6. We also do a reading program with him based on Glenn Doman's How to Teach Your Baby to Read. I have a bazillion (truly) flashcards i've made with word groups and we just go through them--i show him the card and say the word and we're very quickly done. It's just to show him words. It's probably the opposite of phonics. I don't have an opinion on either method. I just like this program. It's fun to make word groups (things that fly, words for eating, farm animals, action words; etc.) and see that he's recognizing words in print.

I forgot to mention that we reward him for his creeping and crawling. Since this is the one program he has to actively participate in and it's hard work. For every "cycle" he does (right now one cycle is 1 low crawl and 10 creeping loops) he is awarded tokens. They are laminated Thomas the Tank Engine characters. One says "Fast Work" another says "I Did it Myself" "Good Attitude" etc. He can earn about 30 tokens in one day. Then he can turn them in for computer time or to watch TV. He can hoard them to earn a big treat like going to Itz. He can also lose them for bad behavior. When we were having such a hard time with him being so mouthy after our trip to Utah, we started to take tokens away for sassiness. We took 10 tokens each time he pooped his pants. Ten gone for getting out of bed after he's been tucked in for the night. He really works hard for them and he really values them. It's been a fantastic little system.

We've had major ups-and-downs since we've started the programs. But what i know is that when we're consistently accomplishing these programs, he's doing great. He transitions really well. He may mildly complain, but it's appropriate. I described how well he did socially in Aspen Grove. He works through frustration rather than losing it at the first sign of it. He's not sassy very often. He's not as easily angered. He doesn't freak out over textures. He can deal with being told "No." He's, for the most part, happy and fun and a treat. I hope he soon "owns" all of these skills and that at some point we can start weaning from the programs and see about putting some gluten back in his system (if he has to stay gluten-free, it's no big deal. We're good at it now). Donna says he's doing remarkably well, which is gratifying feedback for me. It's been a lot of work for all of us, but oh so worth it!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Tuesday

Some days i feel like i've accomplished nothing. Others i manage to get things done. Today, this is what it was like...
  • helped Bode complete all of his creeping/crawling OT program for the day. That's 5 loops of army low crawl around the upstairs level to equal 100 meters and 50 loops of "high crawl" or creeping on hands and knees to equal one full kilometer. The better we are at getting his programs done, the better he seems to function, the better the attitude; etc. So today, he did really well. Had a good attitude, worked hard, got it done pretty fast. Some days this program is a major point of contention between the two of us (i do realize it's asking a lot of a 4-year old to creep and crawl for more than a kilometer a day. Have you tried to low crawl lately? NOT EASY!). I read to him as he crawls. Right now we're enjoying James and the Giant Peach in addition to our usual information-packed books about various dinosaurs.
  • made eggs benedict with GF hollandaise sauce (thank you Trader Joe's!)
  • talked to a guy in India about getting some essential oils (this was a bit frustrating as the company is based in Utah and while we both thought he'd solved my problem when we hung up, this wasn't the case)

  • made a gluten-free pizza for the boys to enjoy for lunch

  • made a loaf of GF sandwich bread

  • helped with Lego issues and Hot Wheels breakdowns

  • had a nice chat with a friend about her hubby's upcoming surgery, anesthesia fears, hospital routine etc etc.
  • changed many a poopy diaper (whattup, Keegs?)
  • helped with conflict resolution (over and over and over) often ending with either, "You two work it out!" or "BECAUSE I SAID SO!"
  • loaded up and delivered boxes of clothes, toys, books, housewares for the family whose house burned down
  • completed the other 5 OT programs with B
  • played at a park
  • ate dinner at Ruby's (kids eat free Tuesday nights!)
  • let the boys get one toy under $2 at Target
  • split a Jamba Juice with them (or a JambO Juice, as they insisted on calling it)
  • got home and had mild regret over packing in the activities in the late afternoon. They were jazzed, and me? i was done.
  • did the bedtime routine
  • comforted B after he fell off the bed and bonked his head while we were reading (K kept blocking his view of the pictures and so he kept craning and moving to see and before i knew it...)
  • reassured B that he had not, in fact, cracked his head open
  • medicated both children with Tylenol.
  • made a lame attempt at picking up the house
  • flipped through the channels and settled on trashy news the E! entertainment had going on (mind-numbing. Aaaaaah).

And now i say, goodnight!

Monday, September 8, 2008

Perspective

I do realize what a great life i have, and the many blessings i enjoy. Beautiful husband, children, home, friends and so much more. But i do find myself getting caught up in the day to day grind and my natural crabbiness and pessimistic leanings sometimes get the best of me. I try to be positive and fun for my children but i'm often out of energy. I've mentioned that i yell. A lot. I lack in the area of patience. But i do have good intentions.

When we got home from Utah, I was tired and sad and discouraged about some setbacks in Bode's progress. I got online and learned about NieNie and the terrible plane crash she and her husband were in. I found myself reading her previous blog posts and just loving the girl. So positive. Totally focusing on the good and beautiful things in her life. Her family has swooped in and taken care of her children while she and her hubby are in a burn unit. And they are positive and focusing on the good. Her sister's blog keeps readers up-to-date and i often find myself choking up over what she's written. Life is so fragile.

Then a family in a neighboring congregation just lost their home and for all practical purposes, everything, to a fire.

And i think, really, what do i have to complain about? Why can't i be just a little more patient? Why not do a few more loops around the train track with the boys? Can't i go with the flow a bit more? Why jump to conclusions and yell yell yell?

I want to be more like NieNie. Focusing less on the mundane and more on the good. Living in and more fully enjoying the moments. I've always thought i'm just not really wired that way. But i can change that, right? cjanerun

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Randomness

Is it possible to prepare a Young Women's (church youth) lesson via some form of osmosis? Hmmmmmmmmmmm. So. Very. Tired. i've been thinking about the topic all week and hopefully my random thoughts that have been flitting around will come together. At some point. Soon.

Today was a good day. We brought some big rocks home from the rockyard and got some things done in the yard. The boys love that rockyard, man. They could watch front-end loaders load dumpers all the live long day. And it's amazing how just edging with rocks around the mulch that goes around the tree in my front yard makes it look so much nicer. Pathetic little tree (an ash. Should i be offended?). But it sits pretty now, at least.

And Bode asked me a very random question tonight as we were tucking him into bed. He asked if i'd yelled at him today. Now, any other day of the week, i wouldn't have to think on that one. But i stopped and thought and realized, noooooooo. I didn't yell at you today, baby. We both kind of nodded our heads as if to say, ya, i like it better that way too!

Friday, September 5, 2008

Sharing the Love


As i mentioned in the previous post, Bode had hand/foot/mouth. I figure he was exposed on Mon or Weds last week at school and in hindsight he started complaining about a sore throat on Thurs night/Fri morning. I didn't realize he was sick until Monday morning when the blisters appeared. So we played with friends all weekend long (Zeke was in town and it was a PAR-TAY!). We went to church (and Mean Mom forced B to go to Sunbeams even though he was really resistent. If he weren't ALWAYS resistent i might have clued into the fact that he didn't feel good). BUT I think he got a weak version or his immune system is pretty good and fought it off quickly. It wasn't nearly as bad as i was expecting. His mouth blisters were only a problem for maybe a day and the rash on his hands and feet cleared up quickly. I thought we were in the clear. So Bode has been back to school (the source of the infection. I'm sure there were worse things floating around than what he had to offer). And yesterday, since Keegen hadn't gotten it, i really figured we were safe. We had a friend over in the morning and a friend over in the afternoon.

Here's the thing. I'm usually super-cautious about our germs. I'm not interested in anyone bringing sick kids to my house and i don't want my sick kids spreading their disease-du-jour. I'm also very much into full disclosure. I let moms know if we've had anything and let them decide based on their own comfort levels. Not so much yesterday. I don't know if i just really needed a break or my own brain cells are completely on the fritz (no doubt), but i didn't even think to mention the fact that we'd had h/f/m. I just said, "COME ON OVER before i yell at my kids more than i already am!"

This morning Keegen woke up crying. Not normal. Yup. He woke up this morning with blisters all around his mouth. Miserable miserable miserable.

I talked to both moms and apologized. It would be one thing if just, WHAM!, we suddenly had this virus and had passed it around unknowingly (like we did to Zeke). Oh well. C'est la vie, non? (what's with all the French?) Thankfully both moms were cool about it (i mean really, what else can you do than be cool about it and then get on the phone to your sister/neighbor/best friend and bitch about it?!). Hopefully their kids won't get it. Be tough, little immune systems! Be tough!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Gross

It conjures up really nasty things in my mind, but now i totally understand why they call it "hand-foot-mouth." Bode's been complaining of a sore throat since Friday (when i picked him up from school on Weds i was told hand-foot-mouth was going around). I didn't think much of his sore throat. Didn't look too bad to me. He complained all through the weekend and came to our bed this morning crying. So i decided to take him in to the dr to rule out strep. When the doctor showed me his mouth! Holy! Blisters that hadn't been there the night before all over his tongue and back of his mouth. Poor baby. At the time we were in the office, he didn't have a rash on his hands or feet. The doc said he probably wouldn't get rashes there if he hadn't gotten them already with the mouth blisters. A blessing i thought. Not 5 minutes after we were in the car he started complaining about his feet. Then his hands. He's been understandably pathetic today and subsisting on Diego and chocolate milk. Gotta love school being back in session! And Kristen, be grateful we didn't get together today!

Monday, September 1, 2008

Aspen Grove

Me & Keegs with Timp behind us

OK. So, Aspen Grove in a nutshell...

Loved:
Bode caught TWO fish!

  • not having to cook, bake, clean up the kitchen for 5 entire days

  • watching B & K play with their cousins and uncles

  • that the kids did relatively well in their assigned (age) groups. I had people watching my boys from 9:30 in the morning til noon. Then i took K back to the cabin to nap while B went back to his group from 1:30 til 4:30

  • hiking to Stewart Falls. Well. Loved it when we got there. The hike itself was a bit longer than anticipated but well worth it!

  • running by myself up the Mt. Timpanogos trail (until i got spooked by some animal in the brush that was probably afraid of ME and i thought, "what the hell am i doing out here all alone? Cougars? Other predators?!")

  • that Doug and I took advantage of having willing babysitters and took off for the morning on our anniversary

  • photographing Bridal Veil Falls (where Doug proposed to me)(it's going in a collage over our bed of all the states we've lived in since we got married)

  • eating at Tucanos, a Brazilian steakhouse. So fun!

  • the girls' night i organized for myself and my sisters-in-law and mother-in-law. We saw "Mamma Mia" and got shakes at the Iceberg. A really good excuse to spend time with each other and get away from camp (i can't stop listening to the soundtrack!)
Me with Al, Bethany, Alicia (& Kris is in background)(why i always have to make a goober-face is beyond me)
  • the quiet time i had to myself while K napped and Bode and Doug were otherwise occupied. I read two books! I was supposed to be crosstitching but got sucked into Jodi Picoult instead
  • how absolutely beautiful it was up there. The weather was perfect
  • that the boys enjoyed the simple things. Collecting sticks and throwing rocks into the river were favorite activities
  • the ropes course. Had to climb up a log and then a short rock wall, into the trees to climb around on cables in the treetops with just a harness and a couple carabiners keeping you safe!
  • Me & Doug in the trees

  • watching camp through my children's eyes. In their eyes, it was AWESOME. They LOVED this train. Part of "Frontier Night," which included snowcones. A big hit in the days of the old frontier, no doubt! Much loved by my boys!

And not to dwell on the negative, but it was a really really trying week. We'd had a very busy 6 weeks or so prior, with our trip to DC, school starting and then this Utah trip. We tried to continue B's OT programs as much as possible, but it was pretty much impossible to do so while we were at camp. I'd watched him start to slip before the Utah trip and things just got really bad while we were there. He shows us he's slipping with lots of frustration and i found myself sobbing almost all day the Sunday we were in Aspen Grove because he was just so angry. And i thought of all the things i've done wrong (having created this angry child!) and just felt so bad for him (because he's this amazing little person underneath it all) and so frustrated at the loss of the progress he'd made. He has been fully potty trained for awhile now. Zero accidents until we went on our DC trip. Let's just say he had "accidents" everyday in Aspen Grove. Anyway. I wasn't psyched to be in Aspen Grove in the first place and these things made me desperate to leave, get home and focus on B and his programs. I do have to say, with all the negative things i saw, he did amazingly well socially. He warmed up to his cousins and uncles immediately. He did fairly well being dropped off at his group activities. He loved the pool and even went down the slide. He was suuuuuuuper fun with everyone else. Seriously. Did great. I was really happy to see these improvements sticking. My child who used to take over an hour to warm up to an activity (and then it was done!) only needed a moment or two to check things out/take things in and he then jumped right in.

I love that he went down this slide!

Camp ended Friday morning (the 22nd). We'd planned to spend two more days in SLC but decided to high-tail it out of there. We drove home the southern route (I-70 through the ski resorts). LOOOOOOOVELY! So much nicer than Wyoming! We've been home now for a little over a week and Bode is slowly getting back to himself. We're back to a routine (school for Bode M-W-F. Keegen and i are starting a tumbling class M-W. And then they're going to do soccer W afternoons). Maybe we'll consider another trip to Aspen Grove. In 6-8 years...

On the hike up to Stewart Falls